Why?

So do I keep a blog for me? my kids? strangers? I haven't figured that part out yet and I guess that's why I haven't posted anything until now. I really wish this keyboard would guess what I'm trying to say like when I text on my phone. It would be so much easier.

I'm not inspired by other people's blogs. Instead I'm jealous or critical. I have issues. I'm selfish. So many people have it down while I am redefining what "it" and "down " are constantly. Where's my focus? Where's my commitment? I can't imagine living life this confused forever. When will I get it?